Thursday, October 31, 2013

Happy Halloween!!

Maddox says Happy Halloween!!!

Enjoy your evening but please Keep your babies safe! And please keep praying for my sweet baby Maddox!!! ='''(((( I'm hoping & praying he comes out of hiding to see what is going on tonight & lets someone see him so they will call us..

Please share the following 10 easy tips to keep your furry babies safe!!!

1. Trick-or-treat candies are not for pets.
2. Don't leave pets out in the yard on Halloween.
3. Keep pets confined and away from the door.
4. Keep your outdoor cats inside several days before and several days after Halloween.
5. Keep Halloween plants such as pumpkins and corn out of reach.
6. Don't keep lit pumpkins around pets.
7. Keep wires and electric light cords out of reach.
8. Don't dress your pet in a costume unless you know they'll love it.
9. Try on pet costumes before the big night.
10. IDs, please!

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Good news we were mentioned in the News again!! Thanks to Karin for mentioning Maddox.. Pray this helps spread awareness so we can get a sighting!

Also Maddox wanted to share some Tips to keep your babies safe this Halloween!! We are sharing this picture because surprisingly I never dressed Maddox up for Halloween.. And Janet told me this one made her LOL.. He is giving me quite the look.. He is like Mommy stop already... This is getting ridiculous.. Imagine what he would do if I put some of those ridiculous shark costumes or others on him.. haha I never dressed him up not because I didn't want to but as you all have probably figured out he is very stubborn and would let me know if he did not like something...

He had one camo hoodie he loved that he wore when we visited family during holidays where it is cold but other than that he hated clothes so instead he had a million collars..;)) Once I put a Oklahoma Jersey on him and lets just say he was not happy and was really mean to my family who was watching him while we were at the game.. Apparently he sat there like he couldn't move and then when they tried to help him he sprinted around the house.. He even jumped through the fireplace, somehow managed to get one leg half in & half out of the jersey and I think it ended up that he finally got it off himself.. I am telling you he has some super powers!!! Thinking of stuff like that makes me realize more & more how tough & smart he is and how strong willed he is.. I know he is out there.. I just want to find him!!! =''(( But until then I know he wants to keep saving others! So please share!

Halloween can be a festive and fun time for children and families. But for pets? Let's face it, it can be a downright nightmare. Forgo the stress and dangers this year by following these 10 easy tips to keep your babies safe..

1. Trick-or-treat candies are not for pets.
2. Don't leave pets out in the yard on Halloween.
3. Keep pets confined and away from the door.
4. Keep your outdoor cats inside several days before and several days after Halloween.
5. Keep Halloween plants such as pumpkins and corn out of reach.
6. Don't keep lit pumpkins around pets.
7. Keep wires and electric light cords out of reach.
8. Don't dress your pet in a costume unless you know they'll love it.
9. Try on pet costumes before the big night.
10. IDs, please!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Unfortunately this journey has lasted way longer than I ever imagined.. I can't even believe it is almost November & we are creeping into Maddox being missing for a year in just a couple months... This year has been beyond difficult for me.. It honestly is quite blurry.. I don't know where the entire year even went.. I have struggled & admit have cried an ocean of tears.. I dont' think there has been a day that tears have not fallen down my face.. ='''((( Losing my sweet baby Maddox... the love of my life in a strange city and not being able to find him is something I can't even begin to describe and there are no words to describe it.

This journey has been crazy.. There have been so many opinions, so many things said about me both good & bad, so many that don't get it & some that do understand a little... A quote was sent to me that says "Don't Expect Everyone to Understand your Journey. Especially if they have never walked in your path." This says it all... I would never wish what I have had to deal with this year on anyone... Like I said I can't even find the words to describe the pain, the helplessness, the fear, ...the sadness, the anger.... But I've realized it's okay that some do not understand because there is no way for anyone to truly understand unless they have been in my same situation and I'm glad my friends & family & people that I love very much do not have to deal with what I'm dealing with...Maddox is my baby boy, my heart, my soul, my everything! We have this special connection that is just between us & there is no possible way for anyone to understand....BUT thank for everyone that had continues to ride this journey with me...

I get asked questions alot like is he chipped, is he neutered, what all have you done to find him, etc, etc... I know it is difficult to see the entire story on Facebook so I decided to put together a quick Timeline and FAQ's.

I hope that this answers all the questions and shows in a quick snapshot of what we have done.. So you can see when we say we have done it all we are not exaggerating.. I wish I knew what else do to because I would do it! :((( But all I know to do now is keep spreading awareness any way we can and to keep praying and believing!

You can also see all my Blogs, all the babies we have saved, news stories, pictures, photos, etc on our website at

Feel free to share!

Monday, October 28, 2013

I'm not sure if you have trick or treaters, but if you do, we had an idea. If you can, print this flyer and drop it in kids' bags when you give out candy. After the flyer is cut in half, it won't be very big. Many times, parents are close, so you can just hand them one. (usually you can right click on it and save or on an iPad/mobile device, hold your finger on it and you should get an option to save).

We made them black & white, in case you don't have much color ink in your printer or if you'd rather copy on a copier. Or, you can use color paper, if you have it.

Thanks so much for everything!! =))) Oh, and if you want a larger one for your door (8 1/2 x 11) just message this page -Maddox Miniature Pinscher Lost in Okc- and I'll message it to you. =)))

Sharing and liking is GREAT, too!!

Sunday, October 27, 2013

This was an extremely rough week... Whole year has been a crazy roller coaster ride and this week was a bad part of the ride.. My heart was shattered again with having a huge lead for Maddox and then finding out it wasn't him. Also not being in OKC when I was supposed to be there has been killing me.. ='''(((

This photo was sent to me today and it brought tears.. It is so beautiful so I had to share.. Thank you Carol Dillenberger... She sent to me because she came across the picture & immediately thought of me and sweet baby Maddox. I know that St. Francis is keeping him safe until he finds me..

The other day when I said something about all the sweet messages.. These are the things that help keep me going.. We are looking for more volunteers to help on the ground some of the things that help the most is prayers and positive thoughts & continued support.. I feel like if we all keep the faith and keep positive thoughts that is what will Bring Maddox Home. So Thank you everyone around the country for everything!!! Thank you for all you do for me & Maddox. Thank you for always sharing Maddox's story and keeping an eye out for my sweet baby Maddox! Awareness is the key...everyone is the key! =)))

BTW I am bad at asking for help but lots ask me daily what they can do.. Besides sharing & spreading awareness, we are also doing a small auction for Maddox to help raise funds for flyers, postcards, etc to keep awareness out there.. We are hoping to do a bigger auction within the next few months also but for now we are starting small. So please share! And if you don't want the item you can donate directly to the Maddox fund on our website..

Link to auction is below..

Thursday, October 24, 2013

As you can see Maddox & I took lots of hikes together. This day was in Malibu.. Exclude my crazy hair but it was really windy up there! I love this little guy so much.. Looking at these photos just hurts my heart.. ='''((((

I did get a call today from someone that just saw our story about Maddox and he had bought a Min PIn from soemoen who found one several months ago.. I am sad to report not Maddox but it gave me so much hope again.. It shows me that we are still getting the word out and one of these calls it will be my sweet baby Maddox..

I received a message today and it said "I know your love for Maddox is unconditional. When it seems darkest, remember Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we can not see." Ironically someone gave me a card that has this scripture on it last year and it hangs on my wall at work.. ;))

Also one of my favorite quotes is one I send to friends & family all the time during difficult times in their life.. I sometimes need to send these things to myself.. "If God Brings you to It, He Will Bring you through it."

I will keep praying and keep believing and have faith that God will hear our prayers.. Maddox please stop being so stubborn and make an appearance so we can bring you home to California where it is much warmer than it is there in Oklahoma! And we can go back to our peaceful place.. the Beach AND all our favorite places like Runyon or Malibu or the Grove... OR we can just stay home and play ball ALL day long!


Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Couple things..

First as you can see Maddox is now on Instagram.. I didn't realize it was posting on this page also but I was playing with hit last night. But his Instagram & Twitter account's are @BringMaddoxHome.

Second I have bad news.. As some of you know Karin TarQwyn has been working with us since the beginning. She has been to Oklahoma City to track Maddox about 5-6 times now. And she was in the area for another case and as a favor to us she decided to track the latest sighting.. I didn't even know she was in town until late last night nor did I know they were checking Maddox sightings or I would of said something.. I am beyond devastated because she checked the most recent sighting and it was not Maddox as they found no scent in the area of the sighting. I am lucky to have such amazing people always helping me behind the scenes in OKC and they didn't' want to tell me because they didn't want to upset me...

I hate that I told everyone about the sighting and now I have to break everyone's hearts... I was just really excited about this sighting and felt like it was really him.. ='''((( I'm devastated and had a meltdown last night and woke up crying if that tells you anything.. My heart just keeps getting broken over & over & over again and I hate it.. I was so happy Karin found that other baby but then I find myself saying why can't I have my happy ending? Why can't it be that easy for me to have a rare walk up find?? Why does the world seem to be against me and Maddox.. I can't stand it.. ='''((

This journey is physically and emotionally draining and I try to protect others so you don't have to go through what I am going through.. The pain is unbearable and I don't want others to have to be in pain like me.. And everyday I find myself hoping & praying I can give you some good news and it kills me when I can't.. So any little bit of good news I do want to share but sorry for getting your hopes up and then shattering

Even through the ups & downs I will never lose hope or faith.. So many have messaged me that they feel strongly Maddox is out there. I feel strongly he is out there.. I was praying the other night after someone sent me a candle they lit for Maddox and I saw him and he was under a tree and he was smiling.. I know God was telling me he is safe and okay..

So we all have to keep praying and keep believing and keep hoping.. No matter what I will not give up.. One of these times it will be Maddox and we will get our Happy Ending! Thanks everyone for riding this crazy emotional roller coaster ride with me.. I don't know where he is now and that is killing me BUT that just menas we need to spread the word more! We need to reach those people in their own world.. We have to let the world know Maddox is missing ahd he is LOVED and his family wants him back and WILL Do whatever it takes to Bring him home!!!


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

SHARE SHARE SHARE!! I already posted a similar poster to share on FB but we realized it did not have the City, State and to share all over the FB world they might need to know where Maddox is lost! So please share!

Don't know how much everyone knows but Maddox went missing in Oklahoma City, we were visiting.. Well for the first 4 months or so I did nothing but search for Maddox 24/7 and not exaggerating.. I slept only a few hours.. Woke up before sunrise a lot and got up and would do anything & everything I could think of to find my baby.. I had no helpers, I know hardly anyone in Oklahoma so I did everything myself.. I spent the days answering calls, checking sightings, posting signs, faxing flyers to vets, putting up flyers at local convenience stores, dry cleaners, wherever.. I posted on this FB page twice a day. When I did not have signs to post or know where to go I would just drive around.. I would walk creeks by myself.. I would sit places and pray and cry.. I was hoping me sitting places, he would hear me or smell me and come out of hiding.. I had billboards made, we were in the News a few times, we were in the newspaper, we did robo-calling a couple times, we sent out post-cards, etc.. And then on the weekends I spent hours on end sharing all over the FB world.. I have a list of hundreds of rescue pages, lost & found pages, national dog pages, Min Pin groups, etc, etc that just shared over & over & over.. that was before FB decided to start blocking you... We had Karin TarQwyn & Cade & the rest of her team come track Maddox about 5 times and that is how we know he is still roaming! :(( The list goes on & on & on...

I admit I have been so frustrated by this whole process.. I get really down and find myself spinning my wheels.. I will never give up or lose hope and will do anything to bring him home.. It sucks though because at this point I don't know what else to do that hasn't already been done but I do know we have to keep awareness up and so everyone in the world knows he is still missing and we are still looking and we will never give up! And I am always looking to new ideas to spread awareness and even just recently added Maddox to instagram! Still trying to figure it out but his account is "Bring Maddox Home". We are also on Twitter but I am also a little Twitter dumb.. I do tweet since it links from this FB page but think I need to do the hashtag thing to get followers.. As you can see willing to do whatever it takes to spread the word about my little sweet baby boy!

Now I am unfortunately not in Oklahoma since my job and rest of my family is in California but still do everything I possibly can from here but I can't do it alone.. I am bad at asking for help but I know sometimes you have to ask.. So if ANYONE wants to help us please let me know! The hotline is coming back to me in Cali and I need helpers to check sightings, need people to help with signs, need people to help with feeding stations, and anything else that I can't do since now physically there.. If you are local to the area and want to help, please send me a private message and I will add you to our local private group..

For those not in the local area we have our Team Maddox PR page that we also need helpers with spreading awareness.. This group you can help us all over the country.. Please join if interested!

And the most important thing is we all have to keep praying and believing in him! Come on Maddox, come out and let someone help you come home to your Mommy & Daddy!! We love you so much & lots of people want to meet you & have presents for you!!! I know how much you love new toys & presents!!! Come on sweet baby boy! Give us another Sighting! Stay where you are and we will come find you.. I promise Mommy will never give up on you!

Monday, October 21, 2013

One of my favorite things to do is take my sweet baby Maddox on hikes up at Runyon Canyon.. He would be so excited and happy and I honestly just loved spending the day with him.. I can't get enough of him.. I can't get enough of his cute little face.. I love snuggling with him and that is why I took him EVERYWHERE probably why I have taken thousands of pictures of him. And if you saw my cubicle and my house.. You would know. I have photos of him everywhere.. Even leaving him to go to work, I missed him.. And that's probably why I have about 15 photos of him just at my desk and one is giant size photo of him smiling at the beach that is blown up bigger than he is.. His adorable face has always been with me and I would be so excited to go home just to see him.. I would get him and he would start crying and barking when I drove up.. it is like he knew my car.. And then as I walked up to the building I could hear him... I think he knew my footsteps.. And Brandon would open our front door because we live in an apartment building and he would come flying down the stairs to greet me.. It was like I had been gone for days but that is how he greeted me every single day even if I was only gone for a few hours..

I can't even explain this special bond we have.. I miss him so much... I look at these pictures of the two of us and tears just start flowing.. Oh how I want to squeeze him and hold him in my arms again and never let him go.. Oh how I want to give him so many kisses.. And I also find myself so lost at home because I miss him bringing me the ball non-stop over & over & over again.. Maddox is one of a kind.. He is so special.. I love him to infinity and back a million times.. He the love of my life.. Oh Lord please help me find him.. Please help bring him home..

Dear Lord,
We ask you to help us find Maddox
our dear sweet baby boy who is still lost.
We know that you placed animals on the earth
for many reasons, including companionship for man.
We therefore ask you to help us find our lost companion,
and pray that You will keep him safe
and protect him from harm until he is found.
We join our prayers with St. Francis,
St. Anthony of Padua, and all the saints,
and pray in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen

Sunday, October 20, 2013


We need to keep awareness up so everyone knows he is still missing and we are still looking so please share this flyer!

We got a possible good sighting late last night.. The Maddox hotline comes to me now in Cali and I received the call at 10ish my time so that is midnight central time.. I felt so helpless not being able to jump in my car to go search for him & I knew most of team Maddox was asleep... It was dark and someone saw him in the headlights of her truck.. She opened her car door and tried get a picture and tried to get him to come to her but instead he turned around and took off quickly.. This is typical of most Maddox sighting calls. They can't get a picture because he is too quick.. Only good thing about that is that shows me he is still okay and he is not hurt.. We also had a call earlier this week in the same vicinity! If this is indeed him he has circled back closer to where he went missing..

Team Maddox in OKC is awesome and by the time I woke up a few were already in the area searching and putting up flyers. Thanks so much to Donna, Betsy, & Jennifer for being so on top of this when you woke up!! I appreciate so many being there for my sweet baby boy... I hate being so far away.. It kills me.. ='''(((

But please keep praying.. We need to get a confirmed sighting (aka picture) and then we can proceed with setting up a trap.. This is what we have been hoping & praying for for months now.. All we need is a picture of him so we know it is indeed him and then we have someone already that has promised they would help us lure & trap him.. We just can't try to trap him until we know exactly where he is... He keeps roaming! So please everyone share & pray he is finally slowing down and staying the same area!

We LOVE you Maddox! Please come home!!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

As most of you realized by now this is Jackie.. Maddox's Mommy.. While he is away I am his voice but today I am going to let someone else do the post.. Her name is Cloe.. She sent Maddox this beautiful message and I couldn't of said it any better myself.. Thanks Cloe.. I'm beyond thankful you are walking and your story is so inspirational and you are so special and strong like Maddox. And your Mommy is inspirational and alot like me in that I will never give up on my little baby boy!

My name is Cloe and I'm from Oklahoma I am 4 yrs old and I'm praying for ur safe return. I hope that where ever you are your safe, happy and loved. But if your out all alone on the streets I hope you have food, shelter and that your ok. Please don't be afraid, if you hear people chilling your name go to them, Those people are trying to bring you home to your mommy. You have been gone to long and she misses you and has not given up on you. I would be so sad and lost if I wasn't home with my mommy she loves me to death. If it wasn't for her and her love, support, faith in me. I would not be walking today. I was paralyzed 1 year ago Dr told me I would never walk again without surgery, my mom could not afford that. I was in never any pain at all. I looked into my mommy eyes and she saw in me the love and potential that I had and she knew I was asking her not to give up on me. To believe and together we achieved this long struggle, she took me to 3 Drs weekly, hydrotherapy, medications. Prayers and I am up and walking we proved a point because others told her to put me down. She refused!! She was even saving up for a wheel chair. You see that bond will never break us so if you have that bond with your mommy please follow your heart get back to her where you belong she loves you and I love you to.
Love Cloe

Friday, October 18, 2013

Smile it is Friday!!! =0)))

Hopefully everyone will be celebrating National Lost Pet Day this weekend for Maddox Miniature Pinscher Lost in Okc to spread awareness that he is still missing and we are still looking and we will never give up!!!

There are so many lost doggies all over the country.. Having a lost fur baby is financially, emotionally, and physically draining on us... Some have been lost several months and some have been gone over a year. There are so many of us actively searching for our babies. These babies can be ANYWHERE, so it doesn't' matter where you live or where the fur baby went missing. Your help for JUST ONE DAY would help us all tremendously! I am sad I am not able to make it back to Oklahoma this weekend but I can still do lots of stuff to help bring my little baby boy home.. Just like everyone else all over the country can do as well...

Suggestions on what you can do are (even if not Local):
1) Share on FB pages and groups and your personal page or friends pages.. I always say "Sharing saves lives!"
2) Fax flyers to vets, shelters, businesses, etc..
3) Post on Craigslist in both categories of Lost & Found and Pets. I have been trying to post in surrounding states so even if you are not in OK if you do this in our state, it would help spread the word more about Maddox!

Suggestions for those Local:
1) Print of fliers and hang in your neighborhood, vets, businesses, dog parks, etc..
2) Rescue Adoption events: Take fliers and hand them out.
3) Dress up your car...

Suggestions for anyone!
1) Be creative!
2) If you are homebound and cannot get out, PRAY several times a day and PRAY hard for the pet(s) of your choosing that they find their way home.

"Someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason."

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

I have some really bad news.. I am going to have to reschedule my trip back to OKC and will not be able to come this week.. I hate this so much.. I have been really upset and wish life didn't throw so many curve balls at me lately.. ='''((

On a positive note, I will be back and hopefully when I come back I will be able to stay even longer than I originally planned this week.. I hope when I do go back we are hot on his trail and I am going to sit with the trap OR I hope it is just to go pick him up and finally bring him home.. I've followed my heart during this journey and I will continue to follow my heart.. My heart says the timing is not right and there will be a better time for me to go back to Oklahoma... As much as I hate it.. I have to be patient and I know god has a plan..

I want you to know how much I appreciate all your love and support and I wanted to desperately to give everyone in OKC BIG HUGS and just see you and meet those of you I have never met.. I love you all so much..

I hope you will continue to ride this journey with me because I couldn't' do it without you... And if we all stick together we will find him! I don't' know why it is taking so long to find my baby.. I know he is out there somewhere..Just very stubborn.. The other day I was freaking out.. I do that a lot but I said "what if Maddox is hurt, what if, what if..." And Brandon said "Jackie you have this little girl Bliss that survived out there on her own.. If she can do it Maddox can do it." Maddox is way more tough and strong and way faster than this little girl. She is kind of clumsy.. So we all have to keep the faith and I know my Maddox is a survivor.. We all have to never lose hope and keep praying..

I will keep you posted of my plans.. I will be back in next couple of months for sure.. I hate this so much.. And am writing this with tears falling.. I have cried an ocean at this point and you would think there would be no tears left but they keep coming.. Know I will do anything for Maddox and I love him more than anything in this world...

"Doing what you love means you listen to your intuition, you take actions driven by what you love, you follow your passions and you express your unique gifts and talents to the world without fear. Being love is about seeing the world, others and everything in your life through the eyes of love – no judgement, no criticism, no ego. Both require you to move from living in your head to instead live in your heart."

'Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus."Philippians 4:6-7

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Please share!! This is the Maddox lookalike we saved from the Oklahoma City shelter within hours of him getting PTS. He is safe but we found out he is heart-worm positive and needs treatment so he will feel better.. ='''(( Please help this rescue and donate! They are the same rescue that helped us with our miracle baby Jett.. The baby with 3 broken legs. Both babies need help as Jett is having surgery again this week.. Please donate! Every little bit helps!!! Dogs as Family is a 501(c)3 and is am amazing rescue! They are not a Min PIn rescue but yet have saved several on behalf of Maddox! I will be forever grateful to them! Both Jett and Batman look so much like my sweet baby Maddox that they bring tears to my eyes.. Both these precious boys have to be okay! So please pray for them both and donate!! I know Maddox would want these precious boys to be okay!! xoxo Jackie & Maddox
There is a Donate link on their FB page at (Click on Picture to get to their page)
Or you can donate on their website at
Or by mail at:
Dogs As Family
P.O. Box 13457
Oklahoma City, OK 73113

Two years ago today was one of the happiest days of my life.. My wedding day in paradise!
I admit though that was a difficult period in my life because a year before I lost my best friend...the one person in my life that was always there for me no matter what.. My Mom..
She left us very sudden & very unexpected at only 57 years young. My wedding day was one I always dreamed of but only with her there... When we started planning out wedding.. I had 2 conditions.. 1) It had to be near the water and 2) Maddox had to be there.. Those were my conditions because after grieving for months the first time I felt peace was one day Maddox and I went to the beach all by ourselves in the middle of the week.. I can't explain it but this wave of peace surrounded me and Maddox and I had the best day ever!! We laughed, we played ball, I think that is the day we even saw a seal on the beach.. After that day I knew my Mom was still there... I felt her so much that day... So the one thing I learned while grieving the loss of my Mom was to find that peaceful place & never let it go...and that's what I did.. Any holiday, birthday, any rough day we went to the beach...
Well now I have no peaceful place.. I can't go to the Beach without Maddox.. =""((( I know he is out there & on my wedding day even though he did not get to go because Hawaii had weird quarantine laws and I did not want to risk him being quarantined so he stayed in Cali with out good friends...And one of the best parts of my day was getting this picture... I love my baby so much and this smile showed me he was so happy for his Mommy & Daddy... This smile is what kills me today because I miss it so much.., he has the perfect smile with the cutest dimples that melts my heart.... I love this little guy so much and we have this bond that I can't even explain... I miss him & feel so lost & empty without him & I do want to be happy but I can't be happy when he isn't with me.. =""((((
I hope & pray I can find my peaceful place again but I don't know how since Maddox was the key to that place.. His smile showed me how to enjoy life again, his kisses showed me I was loved & I would be okay, his silliness showed me how to laugh again...
Maddox please come home! Mommy & Daddy & your two sisters love you & are waiting for you! We LOVE You! And as this pics says we wish you were here too!:((((

Monday, October 14, 2013

You may be aware of the recent story of Roo. A Schnauzer missing for 5 years. He was found by his family because they were still searching and came across him on a local lost and found webpage. That's why I have to keep up awareness. I know I mentioned a few days ago about being accused of just wanting attention ... I don't want attention, I want Maddox to have attention. Someone could be working to build his trust and have no clue he's lost. He may run into someone's yard or garage and find himself trapped. What I want ... what I need is everyone possible to know about "that min pin that was lost in Oklahoma City."

One thing that worries me...well, a lot of things worry me, but one big thing is if someone finds him, they'll think he was abandoned. Unloved. I'm sure he doesn't smell very nice and I'm sure he doesn't look like he's been cared for by a loving person ...not now. ="'((( Also, a dog that's been on his own and in survival mode is easily startled and hand shy. They act like an abused dog would act. Most people who find a dog like this would vow to never let the monster that did this to them come near them again. But I'm not a monster...I didn't do this to him...I never wanted this for him. (And I know you know this) But that's not what we think when we find a thin, dirty, smelly dog that looks like he hasn't been loved in ages. It's not what I'd think. I would assume he escaped a monster. ='"((( So, I just need people to know I lost my Maddox. That way, if someone finds a min pin or sees a lost one, they will say, "Is that Maddox Miniature Pinscher Lost in Okc" and if they don't remember that, I want his posts to be current on fb and everywhere. That way, when they google a lost male Min Pin, they see him everywhere. If enough people know, they might hear about that neighbor of a friend who saw or found a sad looking min pin and they'll say "Hey, is it that one lost last Christmas from Oklahoma City?" sweet baby Maddox?

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Well this week has been so up and down up and down.. More than normal.. We received calls but none were Maddox.. I love that so many are still looking but then I keep wondering where all these babies are coming from and it hurts my heart there are so many out there being found and so many at shelters to be saved..

Good news is Team Maddox is amazing and several people have stepped up recently to help save some babies from the shelter.. I think I told you but we saved a Mommy & her 2 little baby boys.. Then we saved a Maddox lookalike. And then we saved a little baby boy.. only 2 months old.. All are doing great! I am so happy that Team Maddox stepped up to help save these babies! I want so desperately to start my own rescue.. I hope one day that dream will come true.. It would be much easier to be able to save these babies myself vs begging others to help me save them.. But those that have helped me.. I want you to know how truly thankful I am to have met so many people that are like me and love these babies and I feel together we are making a difference..

I don't know why but I can't stop crying.. guess it is because so much sad news this week... With Adrien Peterson's son. I don't know him but that little baby boy was only 2 years old. So heart-breaking..And then sweet Rosie.. Janet said this last night that she always tells Brick to "Be Like Rosie".. She said "Rosie is so happy about everything, everyone, everyplace"...

I admit I wish I could "Be Like Rosie".. But I can't be happy.. I miss the love of my life SO MUCH! I feel as if I have lost friends that don't get my search for Maddox or perhaps I have pushed them away.. I know I have been so distant but I hope all my friends that I have known forever & those I just met know that I love you all.. I am just having such a rough year.. I wish I was okay and like Rosie but don't know if I will ever be okay.. My heart hurts so bad & feel all alone & some days don't know how to go on but I will push on and keep moving forward for Maddox.. For Brandon.. And for my two new baby girls..

In my missing pet partnership class it said that losing a pet people deal with 2 different types of grieve.. "ambiguous grief" (grief with no closure) and "disenfranchised grief" (socially unacceptable grief) and the level of HAB (Human Animal Bond) influences the level of grief.. I guess that is why mine is off the charts.. Maddox was my soul mate, the love of my life, he was with me every second of every day for the past 8 years so I guess what I am feeling is normal.. I just want to find him to make all this go away! =''(((

Please keep praying for Maddox.. I pray he is okay.. I pray he is not hurt. I pray he will come back to me.. I pray he knows his Mommy is still looking for him.. I pray he knows how much I love him.. I get stories every single day of babies found months or years later so I keep thinking why can't that be me and I pray someday soon it will be me & Maddox & I will be together again! ='''(((

Friday, October 11, 2013

I am in tears and sobbing.. My heart hurts so bad that we lost this precious baby girl sweet Rosie. ='''((((
I have never met her but her story has touched my heart and has touched the world.. I admire her Mommy Cinnammon for doing everything in her power to give her such a happy and wonderful life. She has educated people and has had to stand up to those who refused to understand why we choose to let these angels have a chance at life...
This little girl was loved by thousands and thousands of people around the world... she touched so many lives.. Rosie has such an amazing story of love, hope, and faith... She is so special and is a hero!
Run free sweet little Rosie ='''((( We LOVE you & will be missed by many! Sending lots of love & prayers & hugs to her Mommy and family.. =''(((

"Rainbow Bridge"
There is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth.
It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of all its beautiful colors.
Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows,
hills and valleys with lush green grass.
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place.
There is always food and water and warm spring weather.
The old and frail animals are young again.
Those who were sick, hurt or in pain are made whole again.
There is only one thing missing,
they are not with their special person who loved them so much on earth.
So each day they run and play until the day comes
when one suddenly stops playing and looks up!
The nose twitches! The ears are up!
The eyes are staring and this one runs from the group!
You have been seen and when you and your special friend meet,
you take him in your arms and hug him.
He licks and kisses your face again and again -
and you look once more into the eyes of your best friend and trusting
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together never again to be apart.

Prayers and Love for Rosie and her Mommy.. ='''(((((

Thursday, October 10, 2013

I have been at a loss for words lately.. I have not lost hope or faith but just can't come up with the right words to describe how I feel.. I have no words to describe the pain I am in.. I have no words to describe how grateful I have so many people that have stuck by me since day one & So many have given me such amazing gifts that I don't know how to ever repay.. A painting of Maddox.. A book called "For the Love of Maddox"..A couple of necklaces.. A free haircut.. Lots of donations to the Maddox fund by hundreds.. So many have dedicated so much time & energy helping me & Maddox that I know they could be doing something else or spending time with their family.. Some just send me encouraging messages every single day.. The list goes on & on... I can't even list all of you by name because there are so many of you..
But I hope you all know how much I appreciate your LOVE & SUPPORT & GENEROSITY!! I don't know how I will every repay everyone.. I sometimes don't feel like I deserve all of this but I know you all do it because you are like me and you just love your babies like I do.. You are the ones that truly get my love and dedication towards my sweet little beautiful baby Maddox.. Thank you all for being there.. Thank you for understanding.. It is with all of you that helps make me stronger to continue this fight when others try to knock me down.. It is with all of you that help me to know I am not as crazy as some people think I am.. It is with all of you that makes this crazy nightmare a little more bearable.. Thank YOU!
And I hope you all know I will NEVER GIVE UP .EVER EVER EVER!! Maddox is the love of my life! My little soul mate.. My heart, my soul.. I would never give up on that.. He is also waht makes me a little stronger.. I know I have to be strong for him, like I know he is doing for me and has done all his life.. He is so special.. I can't wait to hold him in my arms again and never let him go!
I googled a prayer the other night and this is what came up and it was perfect so I have kept it close to my heart..
May all I do today begin with you, O Lord.
Plant dreams and hopes within my soul, revive my tired spirit: be with me today.
May all I do today continue with your help, O Lord.
Be at my side and walk with me: Be my support today.
May all I do today reach far and wide, O Lord. My thoughts, my work, my life: make them blessings for your kingdom; let them go beyond today, O God.
I have a mission...
I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. God has not created me for naught... Therefore I will trust him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. God does nothing in vain.
He knows what he is about.
-- J. H. Newman

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Yesterday in Oklahoma City a beautiful hot air balloon flew right over my friend Jennifer's house in Edmond close to where Maddox has been spotted.. It made me think of this picture.. This picture you can't see it but someone was flying a kite and we were at the beach and Maddox just stared up at the kite forever! I told Jennifer, hopefully Maddox came out of hiding to look up at the beautiful balloon and hopefully someone would call.. Good news is we are still getting calls.. We got a call last Friday (actually two) in two different areas that he could be.. We also got a call this week that someone saw Maddox 3 weeks ago right in the hotzone area. I hope someone sees him soon and calls us IMMEDIATELY!
So we do strongly believe he is still out there somewhere!!! AND honestly the biggest thing to me is the reassurance that people are STILL looking for my little boy! I admit, I have moments where I feel all alone.. I feel like nobody is looking.. I feel like I am losing helpers.. BUT then I realize that people are always looking even if I don't talk to them daily.. I realize so many have been following this crazy story since the beginning.. I realize that Maddox is so special that so many LOVE him and want him home just as much as I do.. I want to THANK YOU ALL for always looking and for continuing this journey with me, I could not have made it through the past few months without all of your SUPPORT & LOVE & ENCOURAGEMENT!
I also have been thinking HOW STRONG HE IS! I was telling a couple people how he was Houdini at times.. He had a cast on his leg because we had to get a bump removed.. I swear to you, the cone didn't stay on longer than a few seconds and every time I put it back on him, he would get it off.. I stopped trying.. He also had a cast on his entire leg.. I still have no idea how he did this, but he managed to get the entire cast off in one piece! We woke up in the middle of the night and thought it was a big turd on the ground but nope it was his cast. He was burrowed under the blanket so relaxed and so proud he got that thing off! We laughed for hours.. He is a FIGHTER! He is SO SMART!! He is TOUGH! He is HOUDINI! So I know he is out there.. I know he is alive.. I know my special boy is okay.. I just need him to come home!!! ='''((((

Monday, October 7, 2013

I booked my flight to go back to Oklahoma City to search for my baby boy.. I have been dying to go back since I left and couldn't since I had no time off work.. But finally accrued some time so able to go back!!! ;)) Not sure if coincidence or stars are just aligning but recently found out there is a National "Find a Lost Pet Day" on October 19-20, 2013 which just so happens to be when I will be in Oklahoma! ;))

There are so many lost doggies all over the country and many of you have your favorites that you look for. Having a lost fur baby is financially, emotionally, and physically draining on us parents.. Some have been lost several months and some have been gone over a year. There are so many of us actively searching for our babies. These babies can be ANYWHERE, so it doesn't' matter where you live or where the fur baby went missing. Your help for JUST ONE DAY would help us all tremendously.

Here is how it works:
1) Choose your favorite "lost pet(s)" & decide what you will do to help find them.
2) Choose your day: either Saturday Oct. 19 or Sunday Oct. 20th (or both ;))
3) Go to the FB page "Find a Lost Pet Day" and post the pet you will be helping and what you will be doing to help.
4) Then do it. Report back to "Find a Lost Pet Day" and let everyone know of your experience.

For Maddox... The local OKC team is planning something so they will be sharing details later.. I don't know specifics..

But even if not local you can still help us do something that weekend to help find Maddox!

Suggestions on what you an do are (even if not Local):
1) Share on FB pages and groups and your personal page or friends pages.. I always say "Sharing saves lives!"
2) Fax flyers to vets, shelters, businesses, etc..
3) Post on Craigslist in both categories of Lost & Found and Pets. I have been trying to post in surrounding states so even if you are not in OK if you do this in our state, it would help spread the word more about Maddox!

Suggestions for those Local:
1) Print of fliers and hang in your neighborhood, vets, businesses, dog parks, etc..
2) Rescue Adoption events: Take fliers and hand them out.
3) Dress up your car...

Suggestions for anyone!
1) Be creative!
2) If you are homebound and cannot get out, PRAY several times a day and PRAY hard for the pet(s) of your choosing that they find their way home.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

I know since Maddox went missing my whole life seems to be out there but before this crazy nightmare happened.. I was very private person.. So private that I googled myself alot to make sure all my FB stuff was private.. I have been recently accused of being narcissistic and that I just want attention.. And those that know me know this is so not me.. My wedding day I wanted it to be a vacation for everyone not my wedding which is why I had it in Maui and a small wedding....

Everything I do is for Maddox.. All I want is for the whole world to know about Maddox out there so I can find him and bring him home and our lives can be back to normal again.. I genuinely feel like I am a good person and having to be so open on facebook and having to deal with the "trolls" that I call them has been unbearable at times.. I am a very nice person and I will never understand how a person can be so mean and say very mean and hurtful things to someone they don't even know.. If anything this adventure has made me become stronger because now I ignore those people.. I know lots don't get my love for Maddox but I don't need them to get it.. Maddox and I have this bond that nobody can break.. He is my best friend.. He is the one little guy that was there for me every second of every day when I was so heart-broken after my Mom passed away suddenly and unexpectedly at a very young age.. My life still isn't the same without her... Look how cute Maddox is.. I slept with him on the couch when we first got him because he was so small.. I cried when I had to leave him to go to work.. I took him EVERYWHERE! The past 8 years this little guy has been right by my side.. So the past few months a big part of me has been missing.. Every little thing reminds me of him.. ='''((((

And now my life is such a mess without my little boy.. Nothing makes sense.. I just want him home.. I want to look back at all this and laugh about it.. I want to write a book as so many have told me to do about my adventures.. There are some very bazaar stories, some funny ones, things that have happened that you would think I was making it up.. It has been such a crazy year with ups and downs.. I can't believe it is already October.. I pray Maddox comes home soon.. He has to be out there somewhere. We did get soem calls again Friday adn if one was him.. He made a new friend he is roaming with.. I pray he does have someone with him.. That makes me feel better because I get so much anxiety thinking about him being out there all alone.. ='''(((

Please keep praying for my sweet baby Maddox.. I know God is listening and will answer our prayers!

Friday, October 4, 2013

Didn't have words today but then received a few private messages and thought this was perfect to share.. I believe you all already know how much I LOVE Maddox Miniature Pinscher Lost in Okc.. And I have definitely said Failure is not an option.. And if anything I have regained my Faith.. God is GOOD and I know he is with us all.. I know he is just trying to find a way to get my sweet baby boy back to his Mommy & Daddy who love him and miss him more than anything.. ='''((((
Also I was told today October 4th is the feast of St. Francis of Assisi, patron of animals. Prayers to him to help find Maddox or definitely worth a shot! ;))
Here are 3 ways to defeat your FEAR OF FAILURE:
1. Make LOVE your motivation.
“There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out fear.” 1 John 4:18
People will run into burning buildings when they know someone they love is trapped inside.
2. MOVE AGAINST your fear in FAITH
“Faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.” James 2:17 You don't talk yourself out of fear. You act yourself out of it. You do the thing you fear, and that defeats it
3.REDEFINE FAILURE as not getting back up when you fall.
“Even righteous people may fall seven times, but they always get back up!” Prov. 24:16 Failure is NOT missing a goal. Failure IS not having a goal, not even trying, and not persisting when you stumble or get discouraged. Everybody stumbles. Winners get back up and finish the race.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Thought we could play Caption This again.. This time using a photo of me and my sweet baby boy Hiking in Runyon Canyon... I miss taking him there so much.. Looking at this pic makes me cry & hurts my heart... I just want to be together again with my litlte beautiful baby boy.. ='''((((

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Well today was a rough day.. Got a photo sent to me that looked so much like Maddox it made my heart stop and then I started shaking and tears just started flowing down my face.. I thought this nightmare was finally over but then found out this new Maddox lookalike is not neutered.. Ughhh I thought to myself "Why can't this just be him???" and then had a total meltdown at work... ='''((((

But then I felt this strong presence telling me that this nightmare will be over soon... I know in my heart and soul Maddox is out there somewhere and he will come back to me.. I can't wait until that day comes.. Now I just pray this Maddox lookalike finds his family.. There are so many babies to save and it hurts my heart and I guess that is why Maddox has not come home yet.. He still has babies to save.. ='''((( 

Speaking of Team Maddox saved a Mommy and 2 Min Pin puppies this week! Team Maddox rocks! It took an army but we got them out of the shelter and they are FREE! Thanks to Elizabeth for fostering, Shelley for helping to coordinate everything and picking them up and taking care of them for a few days, Wanda for getting IMPS to sponsor these cuties, and of course Donna for doing the shelter checks and sending me these babies since you know I will not stop until they are safe! ;)) 

No recent sightings but we do get calls a lot so I know people are still looking for my baby... Been busy this week since losing volunteers so I have been working on updating website so it is more current, posting on Craigslist, I ordered some business cards to handout, we made new posters, and have so much more on the list! I can do this.. I know I can do this.. Maddox is my baby so I understand why volunteers come and go.. It is to be expected. This roller coaster is so hard but he is my baby so I will never give up.. People say you are so strong.. Well I don't feel strong but I will tell you Maddox gives me inspiration.. I love that little guy so much that I have to keep going for HIM! He needs his Mommy and his Mommy needs him.. So whatever comes at me.. I will keep going.. That song comes to mind.. "I get knocked down, but I get up again..". That is me.. I have been knocked down over & over & over & over again but I will keep getting up and doing whatever it takes to bring my baby home.. 

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Factor #3 & #4 that influence the distance a lost dog travels

A couple more factors that influence the distance a lost dog travels.. These two go against the first two I shared for Maddox and probably limited the distance but he did travel very far even with the weather... ='''((( 

Please keep praying for my baby boy!! All I want is for him to be home!! I love you Maddox!!!